5 September 1998
See related on "Toto": http://jya.com/cej-bust.htm
Date: Thu, 09 Apr 1998 10:30:59 -0600 From: TruthMonger <tm@dev.null> For the record: If a CypherPunk falls in the forest and there is nobody there to see or hear... In the (hopefully) remote case that the world wakes tommorrow to read the headline, "Third Murderer Arrested In Jonesboro Massacre--Suspect Also Linked To OKC Bombing J.F.K assassination, and eating of apple from the Tree Of Life." It is not important for the world to know the details behind the FUD disseminated in events/affairs such as those surrounding JFK, Jim Bell, ad infinitum. But it *is* important for *someone* to know. The Truth (TM) about what will transpire in the current persecrotchsin against my angelic being will be what the Truth (TM) always is...a fucking mystery. What is important is that an accurate knowledge of the details be known, as much as possible, so that there is an opportunity for those who wish to do so to elicit and face the Truth (TM) to the best of their ability, or according to their own personal prediliction, if mental comfort is more important to them than truth. Details--I drove 2,000 miles to arrive at the doorstep of my dear friend Gomez the day before he, himself, found out that he was being cut loose from a company he had co-founded 17 years earlier. I had been informed as to what was about to go down. Details--I surfaced on the CypherPunks list as Toto, shortly before Tim May was driven/alienated from the list which he had co-founded and did my best to provide a bizarre and inane surrogacy in his absence. I had been informed as to what was about to go down. Details--I secured the essential files on my hard drive and headed for the US to put them out of the reach of the Oppressors shortly before they arrived on my doorstep to seize my computers. I had been informed as to what was about to go down. Feel free to categorize the above as Truth, Delusion, Synchronicity, etc, but the details are accurate. A goodly portion of my posts, etc., which seem to be either pointless or foolish have been quite simply an action designated to provide a fulcrum point for my associates to monitor and analyze responses and traffic patterns that result. (Chief among these aims is sifting those responding from personal beliefs and values from those who are responding according to an 'agenda', whether their own, or that of others.) For the better part of a decade, I have been free to do whatever the fuck it is that I do (???), with little interference, basically as a result of the fact that much of the 'game' going on between my associates and their 'opponenets' has been a semi-civilized process of warring to accumulate better tools and information than the 'other side.' I have basically served as a willing schill whose role was to implement needed processes of information dissemination in a 'fictional parable' style that the 'players' understood, and that the 'seekers' had a hope of deciphering (and becoming 'players') without telling the Truth (TM) in such a blatant way as to endanger the 'game' and force everyone's hand. A few months ago, I was informed that the stakes had been raised, the rules had changed, and that my options were to withdraw, or to recognize that 'in for a penny, in for a pound' was the new order of the day. At the time that many of my c/overt associates began going underground, I was able to begin acting wholly of my own accord. Without providing details, let me say that the 'Official RCMP Hate Page' which is the overt cause of my current 'troubles' was designed to provide exactly the type of envelope pushing which was suggested on the list (re: challenging the 3-line Perl criminality). However, the act which caused the hammer to fall was merely a 'final straw' which was not recognized by the Oppressors as a *continuation* of a process in which defensive measures where heaped upon the camel, to provide the main load. (Sorry to be cryptic about this, but the details of the 'other' part of this process need to remain as a gun hidden in the boot, for now.) My point is, the point that has been reached wherein the Oppressors are springing to the attack is not the result of a random, impulsive act. Neither are their actions unanticipated, nor have their actions and plans gone *unmonitored*? I have been provided with information that indicates that some of the factors and issues being considered in handling the 'problem' I allegedly represent revolve around: 1. Violence. I have a 'history' of assaulting law enforcement officials which is in no way diminished in value by the fact that it is bogus. 2. Insanity. I have a 'history' of insanity which is a spin-doctor's dream in regard to having me dismissed as a 'lunatic', regardless of the fact that I was subjected to electroshock treatments as a result of misdiagnosis of Tourette Syndrome. 3. Criminality. I have a 'history' of deep involvement in the drug trade (busted for 1/2 joint in 1969, and 'suspected' of more drug crimes than Noriega, since then). I have a 'history' of involvement with organized crime. (running legal nude dance parlors for shady characters who dine with judges, prosecutors, police chiefs and major politicians). The Good News (TM) is that the preferred manner of pounding me back into alignment with the rest of the Nailizens (TM) is to do a Ted Kaczynski on me and pleading me out for 'jaywalking' once everyone agrees that I am a pitiful, mentally debilitated misfit. The Bad News (TM)... Well, the Bad News (TM) is that I, like other list members, have been, since birth, a CypherPunk waiting for someone to start a CypherPunks mailing list... I was wrongfully convicted of possession of marijuana as a youth, as the result of the criminal malefeasance of the RCMP. The first joint I smoked was on the courhouse steps, after being 'convicted' of The Crime. Although I had a well-paying, regular job, I paid the 'fine' by buying and selling a pound of pot. Essentially, I was undeniably establishing the fact that I am a FuckYou kind of guy. Being young, I managed to accomplish this amazing feat of FuckYouNess while still maintaining my belief in Mom/Flag/ApplePie/DudlyDoRight. This was, in retrospect, a Good Thing (TM), since it kept me from impulsively slaughtering those involved in my wrongful persecution, at an age when I did not have the experience/wisdom to do so effectively and cover my ass as much as possible in the process. Although the Kaczynski/Jaywalking route is by far the most sensible and the safest route, I am afraid that I have grown to love and appreciate, over the years, the FuckYou HighWay To Hell. "In for a fucking penny, in for a cocksucking pound..." The foregoing information/details/background in regard to my life, beliefs and attitudes is solely for the purpose of making it plain that: 1. I not only knew/know they were/are coming...I sent for them. If the Official Version Of Events (TM) indicates that I resisted/ran, had to be violently subdued/shot, etc., then those buying the OVOE (TM) will get a coupon good for a discount on the Brooklyn Bridge. 2. If the OVOE (TM) indicates that I am a drooling mongoloid idiot who needed to be locked away in the Happy Place (TM), then it would be a good bet to assume that Jim Bell's LeftOver Medications (MT) were shipped air-express to Canada for my 'benefit'. 3. If the Official Version Of Events (TM) is that I am a low-life criminal with a checkered past and a long list of crimes under my belt, then 'the Beaver' must have been Noriega's superior, because me and 'the Beav' are such genius, criminal masterminds that John Law was powerless to apprehend us in the commission of our mountain of crimes, and successfully convict us. Hopefully, I am being melodramatic, because I may well have my ass covered well enough that the Oppressors will be hard-put to carry-through on (or escalate) their current actions without incurring more grief than they are willing to bear. If such is the case, then I will retire from shit- disturbing, take up knitting, and invite you over for tea in the afternoons. (And in the mornings, I will just lay around and play with my 32' dick.) There is a distinct possibility, however, that the Oppressors might quite simply drop any charges which would come back on them and make them look like Nazi Fucks (TM), and simply charge me with a wide variety of 'crimes' that are known to be the sign of low-life, scum-sucking, drug-dealing, communist, child-molesting terroists who don't floss after meals. (You know the routine...) The Good News (TM) is that I am fully capable, if 'depicted' as a violent, insane criminal, of living up to whatever label is chosen for me in the Official Perversion Of Events (TM). "We make our Gods, and do battle with them...and they bless us." ~Herman Hesse "We make our Demons, and fuck with them...and they rip us a new asshole." ~TruthMongrel The Bottom Line: When convicted/labeled as a drug user/abuser/addict, I rose to the occassion by actively taking on that role, by choice, as a humanitarian gesture designed to redeem my persecutors by fulfilling the role which would justify their actions, in the long run. Likewise, if I am depicted/convicted as a Monster (TM) who unconsiounsibly rips babies apart with a chainsaw... Well, I've always kind of wondered what babys look like inside... The sole reason for relating the above to you is simply because I have enjoyed and appreciated the contributions you have made to the CypherPukes Disturbed Male List, the IntegerNet, and the UniFarce which we all Cher with Sonny Bono. Thus, on the off-chance that the Oppressors discover the Nuclear SampsonIte SuitCase that I have hidden in my basement, thus propelling me into the limelight with Timothy McVeigh, Pete Rose and Adolf Hitler, you will be able to brag to your friends, "I don't know if Oswald acted alone, but TruthMonger sure as hell didn't. TruthMonger#1 p.s. - Don't tell my mom...OK? --------------------------------------------------------- Date: Thu, 09 Apr 1998 22:11:42 -0600 From: TruthMonger <tm@dev.null> I just received a rather disturbing piece of information from a source who has, over the years, provided me with a variety of purloined information which has helped me to keep my ass out of the fire. While I was absolutely *stunned* when I read the information sent to me, despite being a cynical asshole by nature, the references in the material to events spanning decades of my life contained details which are consistent only with what would be known by those who have deemed it necessary to monitor my activities for various reasons over that period of time. Although the information I received is apparently (I hope) of a 'Plans For Invasion Of Canada' nature (i.e. - theoretical?), it seems that at least some of those who are sworn to "Protect and Serve" are of the opinion that the best way to handle the 'problem' I present is to actively seek to push my buttons, in an effort to get me to 'snap' at a time when I am being actively watched and investigated. Apparently, my long history of biding my time until I choose to act on my predilictions according to my own schedule is an 'serious inconvenience' to those sworn to 'serve' the citizens up to the Power&MoneyMongers, whom they are paid to 'protect.' I was dumbfounded to read of the 'disappointment' of someone who seems to be particularly enamoured with the idea of trying to steer me toward the Murrah Federal Building (and hope I don't arrive there during their coffee-break), when the opportune time to institute 'the plan' was missed as a result of them procrastinating until I had the opportunity to renew my medication prescriptions. What I find particularly disturbing, in retrospect, is that, had I not been forewarned of the plans of the Dangerous Armed Thugs to steal my personal possessions and violate my Charter Rights, I may have well instinctively reacted in a manner that would have left me vulnerable to being enjoined in physical violence as a 'potential threat' to the 'safety of law enforcement officials.' It seems that, given local law enforcement officials' hard-to-deny knowledge of my 'affliction' (I think of it as a blessing...) with Tourette Syndrome, it is 'inadviseable' for the Armed Thugs to attack me merely for swearing and shouting. However, if I should happen to 'wave' my arms around, then I am apparently free game for any officers who desire to interpret this as indicating that their personal safety can only be assured by actively assaulting me. (You know the routine: "Sir, failure to stop sneezing will be taken as an act of Passive Aggression (TM-Orwell) and I will be forced to kill your whole family.") Over the years, I have become somewhat desensitized to the gross violations of law, ethics and common decency, while poring over the files of various agencies, in regard to myself and to others. However, I find it extremely troubling that the type of mentality which is evident in the files I have just read a dozen times, to convince myself I am not imagining it all, not only exists within the confines of secret government files, but seems to be addressed to law enforcement personnel in general, rather than being viewed as information that should be kept away from they eyes of officials who might still have a sense of legality and ethics. On the other hand, the decline in the murderous rampages of Disgruntled Postal Workers may indicate that the law enforcement technique being described above has been pretty much perfected, with Waco and OKC being the exceptions. I sincerely hope that you find the above a bit hard to believe, because the minute I send this email, I am going to go dig the information out of it's triple-secret hiding place and read it again, just to make sure I'm not going crazy... Toto ~~~~ "The Xenix Chainsaw Massacre" http://bureau42.base.org/public/xenix "WebWorld & the Mythical Circle of Eunuchs" http://bureau42.base.org/public/webworld "InfoWar" http://bureau42.base.org/public/infowar3 "The Final Frontier" http://www3.sk.sympatico.ca/carljohn